Replacement

 

In life we just keep replacing to heal, 

We replace our burden of past baggage with work ethic, child, relations,obsessions, professions and hobbies, 

We replace our craving for love with attentions sought easily, 

We keep replacing place, people and thoughts that are handy, 

We keep shifting and replacing until we reach stability or until we reach to our destination -

To the end of the life cycle and in doing so we left behind our unfulfilled desires and wishes -

That we oughta do, we wanted to do but couldn’t, 

We were wired to search for something, 

Some meaning in love, loss, greed, and grief, 

But, we couldn’t. 

So we try things and remain unsatisfied - keep replacing to forget one trauma we jump into another, 

To cover up one mistake we bump into the other, 

And, the cycle of replacement keeps going on in the making of us- our being, 

We try to exist through those replacements - changing situations, 

We think if we can change the order we can reach better circumstances, to better solutions, 

Destination sometimes become destiny, 

We travel to find better replacements, 

Some replacement touches our psyche and we stay there forever- thinking it's our destined stability, 

Some replacement haunts us and we try to escape, 

Keep looking for other options available and the cycle never loses its charm- it keeps attracting, 

Attracting situations, people, placements- 

That we think is soothing us and we stay if only it does so, but, when we feel stuck in the subverting conditions then we try escaping-

Escapism through people, contexts, situations, 

We place conditions on them, 

And, condition ourselves with them, 

We think if we bind them in rules and roles- 

They'll stay with us, 

The conditions will favor us, 

But, what we don't realize is we ain’t to be conditioned, 

We were born to be free, 

To choose freely that favours our survival,

Favour our joy in living,

Our visions,

 And, we were wired to love freely and be carefree, Do things freely, wander in the world, 

But, civilization taught us to restrict ourselves with discipline, 

Culture taught us to be somber, 

Religion taught us to have patience, 

Be resilient, 

Grief taught us sublimation.

And, materialistic existentialism taught us to chase and replace-

Our psych finds comfort in altered alleviations,

Otherwise, how would we possibly overcome our grief and move forward?!

How would then society go toward progressions?

And, how would we function properly-

actively working toward varied formations? 

That's why we seek replacements to place our love, hope, thoughts- all humanly expressions, 

To get positive affirmations, motivations from others, 

We seek love elsewhere that we didn’t get from the significant ones- if once love was misplaced, 

We replace our lacking with success and achievement, 

Equate success with happiness that we think is our gain after massive destruction, 

Loss- the burning fuel motivates us to do something greater to replace those inner feelings of hollowness,

In lieu of grievances and loss- this time we seek happiness in our own skin, 

In our existence, 

In the thought that we do matter, 

Better in our own realizations and imaginations, 

If we validate our own conditions and comprehend them, 

We find inner meaning of the sufferings and we get an answer consoling our grieving soul, 

We become the alchemist - transmuting pain into gain, the logical algorithm. 

This time we don't seek external validations, 

That's why we love ourselves, justify our actions, 

Ego and alter-egos, placements and situations, 

We know now to change the outwards we need to look inward, 

We need to win the inner self before winning another, 

We need to fight inwardly before fighting external battles, 

We need to understand the inner child before attaching to the adults,

And, comfort their inner child too along with ours, 

We need to finish the unfinished work within ourselves before looking for other replacements.

We need to complete the incomplete us before seeking completion in destined destinations.

Otherwise we will always deplete,

Deplete ourselves, 

Deplete others and run from depleted situations, 

Unhealed, unmanaged, unbounded, 

Escaping from one place to another, 

One person to another, 

One condition to the other, 

We need to solve the puzzle before going to identifying with others, 

We need to put back the pieces, 

Align them, 

Arrange them,

In sequences-

One after another, 

Because, nature does not like disorder.

Everything is placed orderly,

Everything is under an intricate complexity, 

Immersed into our own anxiety, 

We consciously do not recognize the patterns,

But, our unconsciousness does,

So does the synchronicities of our lives.

We need to understand those synchorinicities, 

Align our thoughts with actions, 

Though, we need to filter our thoughts, 

Understand from where its stemming from.

The actions are our mirror, 

We reflect our thoughts through it.

Being aware of something is just knowing about it,

But, knowing something is different than feeling it, 

When you feel it- 

You know then it's authentic, 

Cause now It becomes a reality,

Knowing then becomes your lived experiences when you feel it,

Knowledge becomes handy when you can use it in life, 

Your reality speaks about the inquiry,

So be a seeker, 

Be a learner, 

Seek meaning for life, 

Learn for it.

Be alive by living by your learnings.

Believe that you do exist and your existence matters, so does your beliefs.

The loss you experienced strengthens your belief that you are not enough. 

It's not true, do not self-sabotage yourself,

Cause you are rewiring yourself with a pattern, 

If you keep believing it, 

You will carve out the path, 

Create something that looks aligned to your manifestations, 

So beware of your beliefs and feelings, 

What you are thinking may stem from your feelings,

You intuitively think what you feel or feel what you think, 

So beware if you are limiting your beliefs that's impeding your well-being, 

That's mimicking and validating the feeling of lacking,

You do not lack nor does the universe, 

You just need to meet the different interpretation of meanings, 

But, your lived experiences has taught you that you belong to a 'third space' and in a mode of hybridity, 

Where every thoughts mold into a complex illusory, 

Where life becomes a jargon of puzzled mystery.

Rhythmic and chaotic in a blink of eye-

You witness rise and fall, 

Happiness and grief, 

Success and failure, 

But, It's always a process of making the being, 

The being you are and you ought to be!

Connect with your grief, 

It's the only authentic thing you can feel, 

It reminds you of your existence, 

It reminds you of who you are,

Who you were, and who you should be!

Cherish your grief for it speaks on your behalf!

©® Farheen Bhuiyan Nancy 

Time Frame: 11.53 Am, MIST, Mirpur Cantonment. 

Note: Based on today's lecture in IPE department, where I discussed about Jung's synchronicity and jungian psychoanalysis.