Believer

 My religious beliefs belong to my personal space, 

It can't be politicized. 

I lay down my own narratives stemming from my perspectives, and yes I filtrate them out before even enmeshing. 

I have cleansed my thoughts before even speaking my mind out there. 

Before giving a sermon I had been a sinner, 

So I know every bits of it. 

Sin of being a knower?! 

I am completely aware of it.

Before reviving I have encountered spiritual deaths thousand times- 

Born and reborn in the spiritual world before I got into this material world, 

I know someone higher has performed exorcism on me.

He took mission of cleansing my soul,

My higher visions and thoughts,

Guided my perceptions through emotional clarities.

I know God, I have seen him through my feelings.

I have felt him when I had none.

My religious outlook is based on my experiences, 

So, I won't allow others to exploit it or name call it from their experiences and point of views.

My religious beliefs are my personal opinion, 

I won’t permit others to control my narratives,

Only I have the right to choose what to believe and what not to believe,

I don't give that right to mass people. 

I believe what I feel not what I see, 

And, what I can see is unseen to most of them so why would I let them shatter my beliefs?! 

I can see a thin veil what others miss, 

I can interpret voices in my head, 

I know consciously what I do unconsciously. 

My beliefs are my unconsciousness, 

And, I am not singled out from the collective.

My consciousness is shaped by the superego, 

And, most often ego is flawed-

Vaporized in the sea. 

My instincts are primal- 

I control what I perceive. 

My art, My creativity is a performance. 

I perform what I belief.

And, create what I feel,

I move from the guidance of my inner compass. 

Not going to South, not going to the North nodes,

I am somewhere in the midway, 

I hybridized what I have known all along.

Acting from a sublimating energy?! 

Perhaps! 

My unconsciousness is the consciousness of the 'Supreme'- I belief in the unseen. 

I want to rise above -embody the higher frequency, 

I honor myself as the higher creation,

And, I believe in the process of 'becoming', 

Becoming the co-creator of my own destiny!

I unleash the power of self-observation,

And, unfold it outwards,

As above, so below-

As within, so without and so it is.

©® Farheen Akter Bhuian (Nancy) 

Time Frame: 10.51 am, Mirpur Cantonment. 

Note: 

I am fully aware of what I write and preach - both consciously and unconsciously, cause by this time, I have mastered my unconscious Allhamdulillah and MashaAllah. May Allah bless and protect me always. I have gone through self-criticism through my internal radar trillions of time- on a regular basis, daily, each moment I think before I write or say anything and think Triple Trillion Times before doing something now- Allhamdulillah. Thanks to my great Allah with whom our Unconsciousness is united. Thanks to God, the unseen psyche for showing me the proper methodological approach, thanks for guiding me through the procedures and processes. The internal critique is the greatest companion. The greater editor and reviewer of self. I know what I contain within tight neat walls of pumping veins and arteries. The corporeal heart is nothing greater than the nerves of thoughts, feelings and intuitive guide it has. Only I can choose my own narratives and what I should display, interpretation- I control my own narratives through my inner compass and inner guide.