What is life?
A journey of integration to annihilation is life,
Withdrawing from old roles identifying with the new ones, we integrate ourselves with the hustles of it.
Thus, integration till the last breath in search of the final destination is our ultimate destiny that we have to fight for and find.
Iceberg
A tip of the iceberg is seen,
The largest part of it is hidden
and burried.
Underneath the deep blue ocean and seas.
Sea-horses sometimes spikes its horns,
Blissful colors are their unseen keys-
For roaming around,
For life and laughter-
They copulate beneath the sea surface.
But, an iceberg?
What it does?!
Remains stiff underneath for centuries,
Prevails as usual- like a rock solid,
Sometimes the heads are seen,
We see them floating,
Here and there- we think they are free.
But, deep in the blue sea,
They are tied,
Trapped in the surface-
They become prisoners for a lifetime.
Virgin birth
A self-created entity, having been brought up in a vacuum, will eventually self-destruct in the same way as a stressed octopus will.
The game of appearance
We can't be over-
A part of your soul is attached with mine,
We can't let this over-
Your clinginess to my energy is the reflection
of your dire need to control me without even
fathoming the thought of understanding me-
And, here I am, standing behind thinking of the torturous endings,
sometimes we were just meant to
become a lesson to each other.
You have become such a coach and master,
Who has taught me never to put down guard and
never to be off security,
You have been a great player far this time.
It's my fault that I can't admit I am a failure,
Because, I never attach to fail the connection,
Still struggling to bind everything this far,
I've been set into a multistage fire.
It's all about how we feel about ourselves and how we want to appear,
The game of appearance builds our neat image through filtering out the faulty one.
Sacrifice
You and I are intertwined in a spiral of toxic relationship-
Where all of our love has been transformed into hollowed needs!
The need of social validation- binds us though the spark is lost,
We are in a dire need of searching ourselves at the first place-
You seem lost to me,
And, In your eyes I can see a brim of insecurities,
Sometimes I feel at the top of the world-
In love and burning hopes,
And, sometimes my world is turned upside down,
Because, you are a sin,
Like a holy sin, you seem to be enjoyable only at the first shots of drinks and then like a drained and dizzy head you make me look frenzy in the ugliest fights,
Your and mine relationship is the toxic one-
We are a catastrophe -
You need me for your insecure validations and I need you for my emasculation,
And, we hung into this deadly circulation-
In this life and after that,
Union of lifetime is nothing but a survival technique,
Just to survive we bribe our souls a partner-
Perfect or imperfect,
Anyhow we are accustomed to live.
Maybe, you are my repentance -
I am repenting for the sins I've never committed,
But, like a devil curse you are strung into my throat and I can't remove it!
Perhaps, my lack of confidence in love and friendships and relationships has made me go through all of these,
A scapegoat in a situation is always prepared to sacrifice.
In the holy or unholy realm of doom and rise,
I've sacrificed myself in a mere play of hope and despair.
Trial
My heart is divided into two-
In them, a part is taken with you.
I slitted the leftover with my own hands-
Then, split my soul into two.
Voices of 'God' and 'Anti-God' is heard
from the fragmented soul,
Divergences in the fragmented self depicts
uncertain life, well the heart can feel the uncertainties alone.
It doesn’t need a part to burden it more.
Uncertainty about life and death,
Uncertainty about God and Anti-God,
Uncertainty about self and others,
We waive a life full of misfortunes only to survive,
Survival of what?!
To leave our marks on the universe so broad,
We merge with the nature at the end-
We become the nature itself!
We were detached from the nature at the genesis,
We are reunited with it after our trial of survival in the spectrum,
Life and death revolves one after another like a flipping coin,
We are born many many a times in this lifetime.
I lost you and then
I lost all the ability to attach with people,
Fear of attachments and fear of loosing connections haunts me-
I've become a 'black-hole',
Bold and tired-
By endeavoring all the negatives I had to face.
Determined but lost-
Lost in the wonders of the mysterious
workings of God.
Rise and fall and Rise,
I am tired of playing this game,
But,I forgot in this existential fight,
I had to take a flight and a plight,
Loosing you compelled me to become a gem,
Becoming rock solid and then evaporate,
I can not help but detain-
I can not but help myself from travelling the memory lane- the alleys of hopes where we prevailed.
I still remember the space- where you and I would talk for hours, my breath is stuck there.
I miss you so much,
With you I lost my talking-space,
I lost the person whom I trusted the most,
We would use to talk about the universe,
We would talk about the patterns and systems,
We would search 'God's working in the particles and molecules,
Oh, God, how can you be so unfair to me?!
How can you snatch the only dearest thing from me?!
With what remedy I'll console my heart?!
With what concoction will I fill the black hole created in the core of my mind?!
It's detaching me from everything and everyone,
But, always I wanted to attach-
The black-hole created in my heart and mind
is consuming the light,
With a burden on my soul-
I see nothing but an endless darkness of night.
I've become gradually a big dark black-hole,
You were my universe and without you I've been left out like a black-hole engulfing all the light.
Us
In winds and cataclysms,
In storms and droughts,
In wisdom and emotional upheavals,
We take care of each others,
We
stand strong, we remain united together,
We built trust and enthusiasm in all matters!
Here, we are like a blooming flower-
Even after a shed of rains and tears!
When you've lost all hopes in Love
If somebody has lost all hopes from love, instead passion, lust, desire and adherence takes place of love,
Then, you have to understand that the person once had loved some one so dearly and so truthfully that now they think love is gone or love is wrong at the first place, they lose all trust from love when that particular person hurts them, they fear to love, they don't intend to be this much vulnerable with any one.
Those people who once
showed such weakness or valued love so much they don't fall now, they rise, rises above love, anger, hatred, jealousy and other emotions, sometimes they know how to kill their passion and subdue their desires for others.
Once, they know that even love is also a process, an operational trade, that has to be reciprocated evenly and no one will understand them without a cost, they lose interest in love, instead they focus on forming partnerships, accomplices and alliances not love bondages.
This time they are free, they can think clearly and they know what their needs and dispositions are. Now, they know it is them who actually values love and looks for the same thing in others, its their need to be loved, and now love means to them is acceptance, acceptance of their wholeness- the way they are, the way they would like to be in future.
Grave
The girl walked through her grave and shone so bright,
Even the graveyard lightened up and the dead ones smiled.
The girl was so adamant in her beliefs and so firm.
in
her ideals, that the Grim Reaper even stumbled,
He could not take her life.
Her spirit of kindness soars to such heights that
even the sky falls short of her appearance.
She took shelter in the stars,
She moved through her ailments,
Gone through the slippery path of rage-
Bravely she fought with the demons inside.
Crossed the inferno outside,
Still, she smiled,
Hiding her tears she laughed in a gigantic manner-
She giggled for; it should be her show on the stage-
She will be the showstopper and the scriptwriter,
The stars and moons were on her side-
The constellations told her to stay a bit longer-
As for them, they were designing her fate.
You can not forget anything-
That's an innate problem,
You can not forget any sweet memories
Nor
can you forget toxic ones-
You can't forget any of them!
You can't even forget the physical memory -
The touches and smooches and kisses and the cuddles- you can't forget!
You can't forget what you listen and what you see,
It resonates!
You can't forget the wounds you get-
You don't forget the pain in injury-
The 'Body' reminds of everything.
The 'Eyes' can't assimilate Its lids,
The 'Ears' is desperate to listen the voices
what it has always longed to hear,
Memoirs of pain always remains-
In the core of heart- hurting you in silence.
Angels and demons resides on the same planet,
How angelic and demonic you'll become depends on the other person who treats you the same!
Angelic or demonic, accept me as I've accepted you with all your good and bad, with all flaws I've loved you,
Angelic or demonic I've come across all the way!
Love and aggression runs side by side,
Passion of ignition fumes the sight,
Love subdues the pitch of aggression
while aggression deems the light of love,
In the anarchical love, we find,
Love and aggression are two brothers and sisters
who bond together at the same time.
Unhealed
You were an unhealed lion,
I healed you in all possible ways,
Now in the process of healing you-
I am wounded, deeply hurt, and injured in love,
Can
you heal me, pardon?!
If not then, I became like you while healing you-
Unhealed and resentful.
I healed you with my love and affection-
But, you remain aloof from this connection-
So illiterate in love you are!
I don't see any resolution in you!
The only change I see in you is becoming more
tolerant and hopeful,
brought you out from distress and disdain,
but you made me fall into the pits of despair,
Heal me now,
I am begging for a magical herb that treated you.
You know what is that?!
Unconditional love that I gave you!
I loved you unconditionally but who knew you didn’t,
Unconditional was my love, now it is conditioned,
How can you expect me to love seemingly without conditions when your own love for me has always been conditional?
Furniture
Stars should not fall in land as
human can crash them
and make furniture with them too!
Eros and thanatos constantly remains in a fight!
Who wins in the game- nobody knows till death!
Nobody can know till the end!
But,
how can love coexist so well with the reality principle?!
Because, it originates from another realism,
that no human can live without it and It's a pleasure!
But, who says, love is always a pleasure?!
It's a short-term incubation! And, long term suffocation!
But, why do you stay in love?!
Because, you have no other options!
You are habituated to love and love more like Infinity some!
You love for best or worst, but the cycle of love never stop,
whether you stay in or out of love, It's gonna create always a hole in your heart,
whether you extinct from this world,
It's irrelevant; love, never fades away and
there is no extinction of love in any period,
it reappears in many,many forms in the way of life as usual!
Eros and thanatos is constantly fighting!
Who wins in the game- nobody knows !
Nobody can know the end till death!
Till, Thanatos appears in form and fume humans in ashes.
If being oneself is a crime,
Then I am the sinner!
If trying to know causality and self is a sin,
Then, pardon me, I am a bloody sufferer!
If pursuing passion is a crime,
Then, punish me I am the selfish crack!
If knowing oneself and uplifting into a higher state
Is a path of deviance in your eyes,
Then, shit I am the bloody deviant you should be charging on!
If learning and relearning seems a threat to you and
You go on spreading hatred,
Then, I will be the person always enlightened,
Preaching peace and comfort everywhere.
Depletion
I want to feel the nature like I am the breeze flowing
above the hills and labyrinth violet skies!
I want to feel the part of you as if I am one of your
parts prolonged and protracted!
The
reason I breath is you,
I can feel the gentle breeze because of you.
You are an open grassy field,
I lie down like a grass finch,
I want to feel the nature like I am the waves curving
sea up and down in symmetry,
I want to blow you into winds and
waves of the sea,
Do you hear the sounds of the waves in the beach?
like we have kissed never before!
Ah,the combination of breeze and waves
is a fiery one
Can you imagine?!
Words are imaginations,
Imaginations are ideas formed,
Ideas are thoughts-realization of higher self!
I can love you is also a part of me undiscovered!
Now I know the reason!
Nothing is beyond reason!
You are my burning hope and the face in which
I want to see the curves of smiles and dimples,
They are the lightening pearls when you laugh,
I want to be that uttermost happiness in you!
You are my big nature!
I hustle and discover,
It grinded and depleted me into three parts
-mind,body and soul!
What is mind without a soul?
What is body without a mind?
And what is life without awareness of both?
I want to be your nature just like you are mine!
Reciprocity and duality of universe let it flow but
does not make us apart,
Let the nature bring us closer!
I see you like a deep pit,
Never could I reach and you see me like mystery
Always undisclosed!
Discovery or invention whatever it is-
I feel as if it is the only sensational truth!
I breath for you because you are the reason
I am so alive, awakened and true!
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