Beat the Karma

My younger self liked you, 

She was immensely in love with you, so you were! 

You loved the sweet and coy little girl from the town, 

She had the innocent smile that would melt your heart so brick alike,

And, most importantly, she was naive, 

She was unaware of the world, 

You loved the sweet one who was easy to conquer, 

You saw her as an opportunity and a conquest, 

You didn't love her being; her existence, her whole essence, 

You didn't seem to understand her soul and dept of her intelligence,  

So, you could not settle yourself with her growth, 

You couldn’t depict the truth- the beautiful being she is developing to become! 

You couldn’t bear the fact that she is blossoming, 

You couldn't defer or define her stronger version, 

The older she is, the powerful she becomes, 

Just like butterfly grows independent from a caterpillar- she gradually steps outside of her comfort, 

She thought you her accompany, her comfort zone, 

But, you never were meant to be her peace! 

You were a wrecking fireplace where she burnt her toes intentionally to see the end, to see how much of a human you pretended to be to get her love! 

Actually, you never admired for the great love she had, you only loved her outer beauty and an opportunist seeks for every prospect a human can provide, 

You didn't bother yourself to bend your head to look deep into her inner beauty and inner being, 

You don't know the meaning of love- that is acceptance, 

She accepted you for who were- but you couldn’t!  

So, she could make the sacrifice but you wouldn’t, 

Hola, shallow people don't know to make sacrifices, 

Expecting to see them changing is a delusion! 

The younger she was an illusionist! 

She remained in her beliefs and illusions, 

Untill it was all cleared, she cleared the mess, clearing karma between you and her, she moved on.

The younger she- got her karma, 

Now time's up, 

Wait till you get yours,

Learning from her karma and beating it up,

She grew up. 

She is enlightened, 

She is a lighthouse, 

Because, she could finally resolve the unresolved within her heart and brain.


©® Farheen Bhuian Akter Nancy

Circa:2023, Rokeya Hall, DU

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