Claim Your Worth

 Sustain-Claim your worth


It was that, I didn’t need you in any case, 

still I attached my strings with you, 

It is that, I don't need any kinds of attention or validation from you, I am fine on my own, 

Not even needing any gentle smooches from you! 

It was that, I could love you without you being present from a distance, 

I could love you in my imaginations- build your character appealing to delude my mind, 

It was that, I made hypothesis and assumptions, 

That, you are not evil, you are not bad,

I ignored the facts,

I just kept pacifying myself leaving me unsatisfied behind, 

It was that, I never cared for myself, 

I always thought about you, 

It was that, I so unloved myself that all the love was left I gave it only to you! 

I gave so much until the breaking point emerged-

I gave so much that it crossed the limits and showed me the threat-that It's time now to love myself, to think about my god damn own self,

I had to unlearn to love you, 

I had to prioritize myself before you, 

I had to learn very bitterly that narcissistic love comes first, 

We love others not to forget us but to reconnect ourselves with our gone parts, 

I had to learn that self-love comes first than the other, 

You made me selfish, 

Now, I but only I, none other than myself matters! 

If not gaining anything for myself it is nothing or dead call to me, 

If not beneficial for my sake then I am not into it!

Not anymore! 

Life is unpredictable, and the course of lives changes,

This cycle, it is for me, 

My season, welcome to my reign-

I will curve out my valleys with my vein! 

This season, this aura is not for feign-

Those who are false, those who are meek, 

Can get lost from my coverage, from my chain,

Cause, there is nothing to deliver except gain-

If not deliverance is equal- how do we even sustain?! 

Claim your worth darling, 

Claim it with a voice raised! 


©® Farheen Bhuiyan Nancy

2023, DU

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